random hour

I've been dealing with the same shit for years. I myself don't understand why. sigh. I want to let it go but I myself doubt that I can. Strong enough yet still fragile. So easy yet it's hard. So close yet so far. You come and go as you wish. I come and go as I wish. We do things as we please with no string attached. Moving on and pretending that we've moved on is two different things. Deep down I know that you're the one that fills my head, deep down I know that you're the one that can never forget. why? I myself don't have the answer. I tried. But I failed. I did try again. but the walls is not strong enough to withstand a simple phone call. Not once, not twice. I myself lost of counts. And it saddens me that I'm writing this after a simple phone call. No argument, no tears. Just a simple phone call that's occupied with laughter. It's like I'm talking with the same 17 year old boy that used to have my heart. and still do I'm afraid.

;A