Dreamer

In the midst of final exam and I have a paper to sit tomorrow. Something keeps on playing in my head and I can't seem to focus on what I'm studying. Sigh. Well, went for 3R audition couple of weeks ago with Superman shirt, purple skinny, old Everlast shoe, studded bracelets, attractive red G-Shock, and favorite red shawl. Went there for fun and Alhamdulillah I was shortlisted as Top 30 :) Honestly it was very unexpected because scrolling down the Ig timeline made me realize how small I am compared to other participants (Most of them are the fashionista, hijabista and other --sta wtv) and here I am! wandering around with my most simplest and casual attire and no make up on. haha.

Submitted my resume for the next round and they're now finalizing the Top 12 3R new hosts. Well, I must say that it is going to be a dream come true but heyy! that dream was made by me only ofter Tyha shove me with Dena Bahrin Ig account saying that 3R is searching for a new host and my room mate told me that there will be 2 days audition session that is going to be held in USM itself. That was when I decided to create that dream, which is to become a TV host. loll. To think of it back, I might gain some and I might lose some.

I might have to extend my semester or wtv for internship purpose since the shooting period will be held around 26th of June until 15 of July. What will I gain should be priceless experience! Might as well I ended up in the that industry upon my graduation. BUT then again, something came across my mind and I started to doubt about what did I just do, what am I doing and if shits happen, what should I do? can I turn back time and undo all the mess?

First and foremost, I'll graduate at the age of 22 and I want to work in a professional environment. Corporate-ish environment to be exact. I've a plan for my future. I want to get my MBA before I get married. I want to become at least a COO before I reach 40. I want to travel around the world doing business.I want to become an inspiration to young girls especially because that's what they taught me in high school (Provided that TKC is the factory for female future leaders). I wanted to become a workaholic young lady with missions in life. Anddd everything seems to be all over the place once I received the mail =.=

Once again, commitment. Once I am shortlisted as one of the 12 finalists, I need to redo my future planning I assume. I honestly have no idea about what I'm doing, what am I expecting, and what I actually want. As for the time being, let's just hope for the best and see where life brings me to because I can only see my blurry vision of what will I become. hahahaha.

But on the other hand, I can say that the chance to get shortlisted is very thin. Macam orang cakap senipis kulit bawang? lollllllllllllllllll. tu kelakar. I'm happy if I'm chosen and I'll be glad to learn new things and I'll be happy too if I am not and I'll definitely get back to my comfort life with internship to settle (GOSH! =.=') and of course work harder for my dreams to come true :)

fin.

by a dreamer